It'll be alright Max. I promise.

I'm  little bit depressed. Never mind the assignments. Never mind the two storeys high of junk that i have yet to accomplish. Never mind the frustration of not being able to focus on my studies and how i am falling behind from it.

MAX is all i can think of now.

We've been visiting the vet every week. He's been getting all sorts of illness since a month ago. From rashes to skin fungus to being patches of bald, to bleeding due to scratching, then came a hole on his left leg and now...

 

THIS.

It's called Hematoma.

Nerve rupture in his ear causing blood to clot and swell like a tiny balloon. And i have to use a needle to poke it and suck out the blood using a syringe and then squeeze the blood out. I can't be doing this ALL THE TIME. He's losing blood. 

Thus I made up my mind to send him for an operation.

It'll be tear-jerking for me to even send him to the vet but it sure looks like I don't have much choice. 

He's 9 this year and 63 in dog years. Eversince Grandpa passed away, he's always been giving me all sorts of problems. Falling sick often and all. I don't know whether it is still about Grandpa or has he taken Grandpa's place, of being weak and ill all the time.

I just feel bad for not being good enough for Max. And this...this is all my fault. I have no one to blame but myself. Perhaps the nutrition wasn't enough? Perhaps the attention wasn't enough? 

He's such an angel. Never once he struggled when the Doc injects him, squeeze his swollen muscle or does anything rough on him. As long as his eyes were looking into mine, he knows I'll never let anything harm him. As long as I am beside him, he knows he'll be alright no matter how much pain he needed to endure. And that breaks my heart so badly cause I'd do anything to go through the pain together. But all I can do is just reply the look into his eyes gently and smile telling him that he's such a brave and good boy. And that the pain will be over soon and he'll be able to go home.

I just don't know how am I gonna walk away from him tomorrow and leave him behind with the Doc. I just hate this feeling so badly...

Damn these tears better stop flowing. Someone please tell me everything is gonna be alright. =(

Check out my adorble baby niece!

She's too kawaii!!!

=D

 In campus with two brats. =)

*BBBBZZZZZZ*

 I Has a super power yo! Look at what I can do!

 TADAAAAH!!!

Have been busy as a bee lately. designing this. designing that. assignment here. assignment there.

running here. running there. Goshh...am physically and mentally tired. Aiihhh...

but Ronball made my day yesterday...

he's been really sweet lately...hmm. *raising eyebrow* 

oh well, at least he still tries...tee-heek.

was beaming the entire night....TWO reasons actually.

1) cause i Has a Lily!

2) Babies everywhere!

I seem to be having some connection with babies around me latey. o.O
I myself can't seem to know why too. They stare at me, and when i smile back, they start giggling!
Damn cute can? Cannot tahan lah! =D

7 more years FeliciaSee. 7 more years. T_____T

Come away with me.

A perfect getaway it was. 3 days 2 nights in Tioman island. I’ve always loved the sea and the beach. Despite having to endure a little sea-sick, we still had a blast. Pics are up in Facebook as you all can see, however, there were many more breath-taking moments that were failed to be captured. Especially when we went underwater. The crystal clear turquoise water, the soft sandy beaches and the sunny sky made me feel like i was in heaven for the past 3 days. Call me 'suaku' though i live near the beach...but the moment we stepped out of the ferry, my jaw automatically fell and i was amazed by the beauty of the island. 

 Quickly we made our way to our chalet, threw the bags, freshen up a little and headed to the beach. Couldn't resist it! It was just toooo beautiful! We were really lucky too cause apparently we got the last 2 good chalets that we're facing the beach. How awesome is that!? The boys went nuts. Started pushing one by one into the water and yea...within 10 secs, all of us were already soaking wet. haha! We didn't take much pics cause no one wanted to be a cameraman. No one wanted to miss out the fun. heh.

Oh yea, the food there was superbly fantastic too!

Next day we went kayaking in the morning. Missed the morning snorkel cause we were a min or two late and the boat left. (But thank heavens for that! Cause apparently the morning tide was strong and everyone on the boat were all sea-sick.) So it was a blessing in disguise that we missed it. hehe. Kayaking was fun too! Of course it's damn blardy tiring thanks to the strong current. But DAMN! It was good experience. Vincent had helped me kayak back. Was way too tired to do it on my own. Ronball got too sea-sick he decided to walk back to the other side of the island. T_____T 

 Later in the afternoon...it was snorkeling time! And MAN IT WAS AWESOMEEEE!!! We did 3 island hoppings. I hated the first one cause the very first time I leaped off the boat into the sea, I panicked. Like it scared the hell outta me to not see anything when I looked down into the sea. Pitch black and I just panicked. Ronball couldn't be there for my rescue as he was busy controlling his miserable tummy. Using every ounce of willpower not to puke while I was still in the water. haha!  And the rest followed the instructor. They were damn fast and pro. They saw turtles and clown fishies!! hmmph. I was left behind...=(

Random pic from the net. LOL.

 But the second and third spots were tones of fun! We stole bread from the hotel. HAHA! Epic. And fed the fishies. The moment I started to feed, 5 fishies came. Then 15. Then 30. Then 80. Then like few hundreds came! ZOMG. I panicked again. Cause bigger ones were coming. Haha! Stupid Ronball continued throwing bread at me making more and MORE fishies come. KNN. He was very much pleased to see my kan-chiong reaction. Aiihhh...

 There you go. Group pictures . =)

Ronball and me had our romantic moments. FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME! LIKE AT LAST!!!
And I simply cannot explain how happy I was. Like in heaven baybeh! I'm telling you, the sunset was like whoaaa...And I fell asleep in his chubby arms. haha! Until some stupid worker woke us up. DAMN POTONG! hmmph!

YES, THIS WAS HOW HAPPY I WAS. tee-hee.

The garden view.

This picture no connection lah actually. haha! It was just us today after having good lunch together. He may be round like Kungfu-Panda but he still never fails to make me laugh with all his epic nonsense.  K lah i gtg now. Early morning tomorrow. Thanks for dropping by love!

XOXOXO

We may only have tonight...

 But till the morning sun you're mine, all mine...

Play the music low, and sway to the rhythm of love.

Had to drag his fat ass to the beach for old times sake.

But we managed to have a little fun. Tee-hee.

I'm a sucker when it comes to romance. Sigh.

I just hope/pray/beg that he learns to like it too.

 This is the beach we used to meet up and secretly "date". 

3 years ago...boy oh boy, how time flies...

And how macho he was back then...aihhh...

I was a happy-happy girl. =)

Yes, only for that night. 

That night of nadeje cakes and swaying to the rhythm of love.

xoxox

hello-jello!

Had sushi for lunch today. Whee! At least one of my food craves is off the list. heh. Next would be some good blueberry cheese cake. YUM!
Past few days had been good. Classes had begun and all. By definition, that technically means back to jail. French class was funny though. Saying U and Q in french is definitely a challenge. lol. But not to worry, for i shall master it! Gonna have to if i wanna get that crappy A. Drama in french coming up in 10 weeks. Oh boy... =/
Anyways, I just got back from a jazz performance. In some nice cozy cafe somewhere in town. Met some nice people but was not really into the music cause i freaking paid RM15 bucks and was entertained by some average groups of bands. sheesh. So unpro can. The guitarist re-started his song like 5 times. pfft. The saxophone guy was too loud and the sound system wasn't that good overall. Angry birds entertained me more. =.=
So much for a Friday night of jazz. Rather disappointing.

Am currently in the middle of doing Daddy's day card. =) So ima get back to it. Have a great weekend ahead loves.

Rock on people! Rock on.

Psst. Though I am a sentimental person, I think ima blast some club hits tonight.

(Since the girls are up in KL busy clubbing and i am pathetically staying home. heh.)

xoxox

Contented.

Hello loves! How's your weekend? Mine was awesome. =) Saturday was alrighty, had How I Met Your Mother and Glee marathon and at night brought brother for Kung-fu Panda (as mentioned in the previous post).

As for Sunday, parents decided to make a trip to KL for some shopping and scouting of glorious food and hah! Food was good alright. So was shopping too actually. Damaged about RM250 just on clothes. SHIAT. And i have been reminding myself throughout the journey that i have another pending trip to save on. Dammit.

Anyways. Here are some pics to feast your eyes...

Pasta.

The grilled chicken which looked like plastic but tasted fantastic. XD

Ribs. 

Mojo Chicken!

All food above are from Tony Roma's. =)

 

 Yes, i was at Midvalley. They were having this Pirates themed decoration and exhibition.

Fun stuff!

 Grandma and me.

 Got myself a new watch too from Fossil. Damage, RM350.

Good thing mom n pops kindly offered to pay for this baby. heh.

Then we went our separate ways for a bit. Ron dragged me to this pet exhibition which i was quite reluctant at first. Cause, pfft...being a girl, of course i'd dig shopping and not waste time since i only have less than a day. =.=

But he did the right thing. Got me to save money by spending about an hour there. LAWL. Tickets were RM5 per adult and RM2 per child. Not bad...=)

And good God, the pets were adorable! 

PS: Calynn Gui u will grow mad there cause there were like 20 poodles running around. lol. Damn kawaii!

Most people brought their pets there. =)

And by pets, yes there were iguanas, snakes, geckos, mice, frogs, etc. you name it lah!

But there were furry and cuddly ones too!

Pictures will do the talking. =)

Here's a husky. Super huge man. Hot ain't he?

My hair was blowing cause he had his own personal air-cond. pampered much?

Aww...this little darling here is only about 18cm in size. 

She's a Cocker Spaniel and only 7 weeks old. RM1.5 K ok...

Sleepy head. =)

Had a chance to carry her. She playfully licked and bit my nose, and then...sucked it! LOL. 

Guess she was hungry.

Baby dwarf bunny!

White schnauzer.

Another husky. Super friendly and handsome too. 

If i'm a bitch, i'd totally date hime. HAHA!

wtf.

Cuddly-wuddly hamsters. 

 

 Mr. Beagle who went around asking for donations. Cute guy huh?

 More bunnies?

 Leopard gecko.
Look at the blardy price yourself lah. For one stupid colourful cicak. wtf. Haha!

Not bad la for RM5. heh. Got free shampoo for Lola(my bunny) too. lol.

Good food, good shopping, good times indeed. 

I don't mind doing it all over again...=)

PS: Sorry no cats. Hate those creatures! 

That's all from me for now...

XOXOXO!

BABY PO!!!

Kung Fu panda is superbly adorable! Go watch guys!

Ok, gtg. early morning tmrw....off to KL! hehe.

I'm being wretched again.

Ok, her hair is seriously chio can? 

I am like freakingly obsessed with this pixie cut look but gosh! should i try it? Grrr...hate it when i have this stupid pathetic dilemma.


To cut. OR. Not to cut. 

If cut,
Cannot cry...cannot regret. I think....think la, would be ok on me. Must always think i look like a fucking catwoman all the time. pffft. ok lame ttm.

If don't cut,
I look more feminine. Can fengg my hair like sunsilk model. haha! Boyfie suka. Daddy also suka. But sienzzz....=.= and the weather is seriously HOT like nobody's business. Madness ok.

I think i am seriously too free to the point whereby everyday i can list down reasons on whether or not to cut my hair. suggestions?? Dunno la. pek-chek ok.
I better not continue this post, it's boring you i know. heh. Alrighty then, off i go.

Kthanxbai.